ZJ’s 5th Birthday!

(I’ve had this on draft forever! I’ve been to lazy to upload the pictures from ZJs birthday I know, I know, I’m horrible don’t remind me! but pictures are coming soon!)

I can not believe that it’s been 5 years since I first laid eyes and feel in love with the most amazing boy I have ever met! (and I can already feel the tears forming in my eyes as I type that one sentence!)

It has truly been an amazing 5 years! I’ve learned everyday just as much as he has and have been able to see things in a child’s perspective once again. The little things we as adults sometimes take for granted mean so much to these kids. I can’t begin to explain the feeling you get when you see your child’s eyes light up the first time they’re up close and personal to a real life seal at the aquarium or when they’re at the Macy’s North Pole and meet Santa for the first time and they turn to you and tell you how awesome you are. It’s truly amazing and you feel like you’re on top of the Universe!

 

It was a not so normal Saturday morning at “Casa del Tirado-Cruz”. Jeni and the kids came over the night before and I was supper excited to jump on ZJs bed and wake him up with Birthday kisses! Being the smooth little fella he is he just gave me a smirk and said ”Thank you mommy!” 

He walked out of his room only to see a giant birthday bag from his Titi Jeni and Tio AR waiting for him on the dinning room table!  He pulls out nothing but ninja turtle things! Throw blankets with a Leonardo pillow (his favorite Ninja Turtle) and a Leonardo pajama set with a blue ninja mask! He runs to his room and puts on his new PJs right away.

Jeni, made breakfast which was a relief for me! And to ZJs surprise his birthday gift matched the new cup and plate set I had gotten him the night before at walmart. (I freaking LOVE Walmart!)

I got a phone call from my Dad saying he wasn’t sure if he was going to go to the Birthday party Sunday. I choice a place in Queens called Jump N Party. This place has wall to wall bouncy houses,  indoor rock climbing, Nerf Zone and a separate room from the babies and I was able to have a private party. Basically I was going to have a bunch of kids bouncing around yelling and doing all kids of things we tell then not to do on a normal day! My dad hates places like that! lol So he decided to spend the Saturday with ZJ and I took the opportunity to do my last minute running around, hair and nails of course!

Sunday morning was hectic!!! Jeni and I had planned a Photo shoot for ZJ Saturday afternoon but with my Dad coming to get him we decided on Sunday before his party. When we got to the location of the shoot I got a phone call from Yaya, who was going to pick me up at 3 to take me to the place saying there was a change of plans and she will be picking me up at 1:30. I was already 12:30 and I wasn’t even dressed yet!

Luckily ZJ cooperated and Jeni was able to get a few awesome shots in such little time.

I was dressed and ready to go by 1:30 on the dot and we were on our way! Josh, Jeni, AR and the kids would be meeting me there.

When I got there my mom, sisters and cousin Joey were already there and ther kids where having a ball.

Everyone else arrived just as the pizza was being served. To my surprise my dad ended up showing up.

Everything was going great and the girls who were playing host did an awesome job not letting me do a thing! lol

ZJ and the rest of the kids went home happy and tired and that’s exactly what I was aiming for.

So here’s to another wonderful year with my baby boy! (who isn’t much of a baby anymore)
May he continue to grow, healthy and happy as ever! And may Josh and I not miss a thing while he’s doing it!

(Pictures Coming Soon)

Co-workers

We all have some co-workers we get along great with while others just get under your skin!

Well in my case I have both!

For the most part everyone here are such sweethearts! Everyone at my office has their own work to day and sits quietly doing it … or at least acts like they are.
(ex: me sitting at my desk right now pretending to work but writing a blog about work instead. Truth is, it’s Friday and like most people I’d rather be out enjoying the beautiful we are having today.)

While everyone in my office is wonderful, there is one asshole who puts me in a bad mood just by walking into the office. Ugh! He’s just one of those people who ooze of bad vide! Not to mention he complains about everything and would prefer to be in everyone’s business and try to do everyone’s job instead of his own.

But truth is, I don’t take him home and only have to deal with him 8 hours a day (or less) and even though he gets under my skin and his presence annoys me he’ll never know it.
Honestly, I love his reaction when I bush him off and when I “kindly” answer a question he thinks I have no idea how to answer

So fuck off douche! I’ll play friendly and be as professional as possible but don’t think you’ll be walking all over me!

Ralphy’s Birthday!

First let me just say Happy freaking Birthday to some who’s friendship is more important to me then he thinks and what I might lead on.

Saturday night, 809!
I definitely don’t feel like a spring chicken anymore! I was legit falling asleep on my sofa waiting for Kika to call me so I can leave my house to meet with her.
Once I got there Jean spots me from across the street with my “bright ass red blazer”. We chit chatted for a few minutes before Kika, Beba, Marlene and Ralph arrived. Just catching up on work, new tattoos and life. We haven’t hung out in a while and I kinda missed his bimbo ass lol

I haven’t really been able to hang out with Kika lately either. Of course we speak everyday but it felt great to be back together doing what we do best; getting bombed and high off life, dancing like “white girls”.

I was reunited with my party crew and I expected to get a little crazy! Especially with Henny in the system.

Drinks in hand and some shots is all it took to get the party start!

Ralphy, I hope you enjoyed your birthday and cheers to many more!
Love you!

Short Update

So last time I left off a “working progress” and I’m happy to report that I am in my own pursuit of happiness.

For the first time in a while I feel “light”. There is no longer a weight on me. I could never pin point what was bothering me but whatever it was seems to be gone now!

I’m currently in talks with project that I hope will be in the in the works soon and I’m super excited!

Josh just had an art show which I will be blogging about as soon as I get some pictures together.

ZJ is doing amazing!!! He now knows how to write his first and last name and he can read small words! I couldn’t be any more prouder! I’ll admit now that I’m working it saddens me to be away from him and not being able to be the one to pick him up from school. I can’t help but fell like I’m missing so much! So now any available time I do have is dedicated to him.

With summer right around the corner, I can’t help but fell excited! I can’t wait to see what summer 2013 has in store for me!

Stay tuned!

 

Progress

I’ve always been able to get over things fast.

Considering the situation I’m happy I have that ablity. Although I’m not fully over it and it still makes me sad I’m happy i don’t feel like I’m falling apart anymore. My eyes are opened to new realities. 

Its still a working progress but it’s something I’m will to fight through until there’s nothing left.

Alone

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.

I like listening to music and walking home alone.

I like sitting in silence, and doing nothing.

It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

 

What i don’t like is feeling alone.

Having a million people to turn to but feeling like you can’t.

When all you want to do is turn to one person but all they want to do is turn you away.

 

I like to do some things alone but i don’t like to feel alone

and thats exactly how I feel. 

Clarity

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?