It’s Her Birthday

Probably wonder who “Her” is, huh?

Well I’m talking about my the women whose smile I can still see on a beautiful sunset. Whose laugh I can still hear when an old Jerry Rivera song is playing. Who’s the 1st person who pops in my head when I think back to my childhood. My beautiful Abuela, of course.

Today’s her birthday and instead of being sad that she’s not here to celebrate, which was pretty difficult because of the sucky weather, I’ve kept an upbeat and positive attitude today. I miss her like crazy but being sad will not bring her back. I’ve never seen her sad so why would I be on her special day.

I’ll just play her favorite song and remember how she didn’t speak or understand  much english but would sing this song like english was her main language.

Feliz Cumpleanos Abeula! Te queiro y te extrano mucho

And I Am Telling You

Saturday Minxie and Ari came over and for sme random reason I had the song “And I Am Telling You I’m Not Going” stick in my head Jennifer Hudson’s version. No matter how many times I tried i could not stop myself from singing it. Believe me when I say, neither  Jennifer Hudson or Jennifer Holliday would not have been proud of my singing lol

My dad was telling me about this girl on American Idol named Jessica Sanchez that performed the song and did more then amazing with it. Unfortunately, i don’t watch American Idol… (i’ll wait while you guys gasp at how surprising that is to hear)… So anyway, I ended up looking up her performance on youtube. Needless to say i had goosebumps the whole performance. I ended up looking up more of her performances. So, the the other 19 people who, like myself, do not watch American Idol i strongly recommend you look Jessica Sanchez up n youtube.

I’ll leave you guys with the song to listen to which is now stuck in Ari’s head HAHA

Process of Growing Up

Just got back from a doctors appointment with ZJ. He had a physical done along with some blood work. Everything is absolutely perfect including his tonsils, which I think are a bit big for his size but the doctor said look fine especially since he has no history with throat infections or any complaining of throat pain. I swear its a mothers job to exaggerate everything, while the dads job is to stay calm and look at you like your crazy. Lol
So with the physical all done, all that’s left to do is wait for blood work to come back and fill out some paper work and my baby boy will be all set to start school im September. He’s all excited while I on the other hand am not ready to send him off just yet. I just want to keep him home with me forever. But unfortunately I can’t. I’ve had 4 years and a whole summer ahead to prepare for the first day of school and the closer we get to the date the more I want to pull him back to when we became an official couple as mother and son. I refuse to even think about the day he decides to move out on his own. Trust me they aren’t lying when they say how quick kids grow up. ZJs only 4 and is seems like he was just learning how to walk yesterday.
Well, this is just part of the growing process and rather then complaining about him growing up so fast all day long I’m glad to have a front row seat to watch him succeed at any and everything and to give him that push he will need if he ever feels like quitting

Dear Joey

We met in diapers, and have been inseparable ever since

From getting dirty at the park to staying up late talking about boys

I was the sister she never had and always longed for

She was the diary I knew my mom would never read

We were only friends because as some sick joke God forgot to make us related

But we didn’t let blood relation and different family members keep us from saying we’re cousins

And a little Holy water just made it official

Vowed to protect each other from anyone who dare crossed us

There wasn’t a battle we faced alone

Years later we may not speak everyday

but no matter how many days pass we know we’re only a phone call away.

I miss her like crazy

only to get together and have it feel like we haven’t skipped a beat

Many things have changed but some things still remain

like the memories we’ll always have and years that have yet to come

Mothers Day

Well, let me start out my saying thank you to everyone who wished me a Happy Mothers Day. Your text, phone calls, Facebook messages and tweets were all appreciated and did not go unnoticed.

So of course I waited till the last-minute to get my mom a gift for this special day and double of course I couldn’t find what I wanted to get her and what she told me she needed.  I decided to go with buying her an everyday kind of purse and after searching I came across vermillion color sling bag. I did like the bag but I’ll admit it was love at first sight. With Josh rushing me (as always) I decided to get it anyway. Standing in line just staring at the bag still not content with what I was a bout to purchase I remembered my mom complimenting me on a pair of shoes I was wearing one day. I put the bag back and walked out, on to the next store. I found the shoes and since we are the same size I tried them on to insure a perfect fit.

Back home Josh, ZJ and I waited until 5pm for my family to arrive so we can all head out to dinner together.

We had reservations at Sitio, a Cuban Brazilian restaurant in Queens. The food was delicious and there was a live band playing all the spanish hits, new and old. At one point I wanted to get up and dance but since I can’t get Josh to dance spanish music unless he’s drunk, my only hope was ZJ who by then was a little cranky and refused to dance with me unless we were outside.

After dinner we headed over to Cold Stone for some ice cream because apparently the flan de coco we had for desert at the restaurant wasn’t enough haha. We grabbed our ice cream to go because for some strange reason it was way to hot in the store.

Once home I had  bit of the “itis” and fell asleep while watching TV only to wake up the next morning to find Josh had taken Monday off to spend the day with ZJ and I

Midnight Blues

When all else fails, take pictures of yourself looking exactly how you feel. BORED AS HELL

Oh yea,
Happy Mothers Day

A Battle Alone

I should really start putting myself first. I’ve spent so much time being someone else’s cheerleader I forgot about who I am and what I want. I don’t blame anyone but myself though. Although I don’t expect anyone to hold my hand and guide me any of life’s obstacles I thought I would get some sort of encouragement from someone who I’ve proudly stood right next to while they basked in all their glory and who I’ve help to my best ability while they scrambled to put things together.

I feel like I’m in a battle alone. And yes, there are a few who push me and encourage me but when there isn’t that one person who isn’t standing on the sidelines cheering for you like you did for them as much as you appreciate everyone who is it feels like you’re standing alone with no energy to even try.